This week has definitely come with it's challenges- in my home life as well as my work life. For some really dumb reason I thought it would be a good idea to volunteer as a union steward at my store. I know, right? Talk about glutton for punishment. I mean, let's face it. Depression is a part of my life. That means that I am constantly battling what I think people think of me. Mostly because I don't think very highly of myself. Sound confusing? Try living it. So while I'm discussing with the union rep the situation at work, I have this perceived idea that other people I work with hate me. Is it true? I have no idea, but to me it's very real. Let's also factor in the anxiety that I can sometimes go through over confrontation. And I volunteered for this?! Sure did, I used to thrive on this type of stuff. Now, I'm not so sure, but it's an interesting learning experience.
All the stuff at work aside, I haven't had a great night's sleep since we've moved our bed upstairs after the weekend. My husband's CPAP machine went smashing to the ground the other night which means it may not be working properly. That causes him to have a horrible night's sleep which means... you guessed it, I don't have a good night either. Then there's just the fact that the kids like to wake me up. This morning I woke up to my son standing over me. Terrifying! He's not terrifying, but what he did was. I almost wet myself! Honestly, don't scare someone first thing in the morning who has a full bladder, you never know what will happen.
A couple good notes. Things seemed to work out at work. This makes me very happy because I genuinely do love my job, sometimes politics just get in the way. I love my coworkers and my customers. I especially love that in the pharmacy you are always learning and that that makes it challenging.
A second good note. My husband texted me last night at the end of my shift that our cat came home. It took her almost a week, but she came through the door. I had honestly believed that she wouldn't be back and I was very upset. It was great to see her again. It just means things will get a little more interesting with Baby Bear but we're up to the challenge.
You know the saying, the grass is always greener on the other side? This is my attempt to find greener grass right where I am in my life.
BTW - I'm the one on the right, just in case you didn't already know that.